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Cored

I have recently started working with some very smart people who are helping me with my grief. The first thing I have learned is that It Must Be Gone Through. But last night, I got triggered. I attended my first MoMondays event. The speakers told compelling stories of triumph over mental and physical challenges. We were warned on our tickets that these stories could be very emotional. Indeed they were. But the trigger for me came from an unexpected place. A recurrent theme throughout the evening was how Love Made It All Possible. The support of a loving spouse over many many decades was what enabled them to survive and thrive. My trigger. But the wave didn't start right away. It was way, way out in the deep ocean, an unseen tsunami slowly picking up speed as it headed towards me. I actually got through the evening beautifully, pleased that I had chosen to do this for myself. I spent quality time in conversation with the lovely Sheila, even put some markers down for future co...

My First Love Letter

Time to do a little jamming out in Meadow Lane Studios. Time once again to celebrate one of the many gifts that came from my marriage to the man whose name I am still proud to carry. These studios, this delicious space that is my home, continue on as an homage to the man who showed me what love looks like,  sounds like, and what it feels like -- magnificently. He brought me music, he brought me passion, he awoke the artist in me, and he loved me.  When that love got taken away, it was hard -- but it made me discover the biggest gift of all. That was the invitation to find You. So this is my first Love Letter to you, Lea: wonderful, sweet, amazing woman that you are, I am so proud of you. So proud. You take my breath away. You inspire me. You show me what courage is. You show me what integrity is. And you are going to do such things. Such things. You already are. I love you. You go girl.